I think I’m lucky that it’s the holidays, otherwise I’d probably get boned at Uni from the lack of concentration lol.
I don’t know what the hell is wrong with me lately, it’s getting hard to go through a day without you appearing in my head. Sleep or no sleep.
I can’t keep this up.. yet I want to at the same time?
It’s kind of a funny, it’s kind of fuzzy. Yet, I have this funny feeling that it’s not necessarily the most normal thing to do haha.
I know that alot of things I do now will mean nothing to you, despite how much I wish they did mean something.
It’s selfish and sick I know, especially at a time like this. But don’t worry.. I’m fighting it hard and I’m keeping it down as much as possible..
I suppose whatever happens will happen.. You probably already picked up the hints, you probably already have a feeling..
.. I suppose I should just make it clearer someday, but that does not mean anything will change, it’s merely a notification, not a move.
I just needed a place to vent this.. because I’m running out of places to hide..
.. it’s ironic, now I realise how lonely I am haha.
It’s hard not to feel that you’re blocking me out of your life – mm, like despite all the times I would extend my hand out for you, it feels like you’re just turning your back on all of it now.
How is it that you can expect me to really not feel that I’ve done something wrong.. it’s such a sudden change in person, it really is. Are you trying to show me someone that you don’t usually show others?
I’m an idiot; just let it be clear, I pick things up really slow.