I just got home today from a 13 hour working day (a colleague went to watch a movie, came back and left earlier than me!) because of some issues occurring at work. Not complaining because I feel it’s part of my job and duty to do whatever I possibly can to make sure I deliver what has been promised.
But it frustrated me a bit because this particular piece I’m working on was so close to completion and then there was this minor hiccup.. We’ve done as much analysis as possible and think we’ve figured out what the issue is. That’s not the frustration; the frustration is actually from the inability for me to resolve it. Whether it’s because of my (lack of) expertise, limited access to systems at work, or resources / contacts.. just the feeling of helplessness.
It’s one of the feelings I hate especially when I know something is wrong and I even have an idea how to fix it. But I just can’t because of some other reason. It’s this feeling that really frustrates me especially since I’m so close!
But it’s not just limited to work I suppose.
It’s really in general, like some times when someone I love or care about is in trouble I can only support them by listening to them if they ever need to rant. I won’t lie, some times it’s a bit tough because I obviously care about their well-being and I wish I could do more for them.
It’s not so different for work either because I just want to get the work done, tick that box, meet deadlines and “expectations” or promises even.
But what can I do about this? I’m trying my best to learn as fast as I can on the job because I’m relatively new. I just wish I could bring more to the table, some kind of expertise or knowledge that doesn’t require me to depend so much on other teams or third party support.
It’s always the small things.. the small issues that keep me up at night.
We’re so close. So close.. someone! Throw us a bone! 😦